SEX ADDICTION AND THE SEX INDUSTRY WILL ULTIMATELY DESTROY YOU. JESUS CHRIST CAME TO HEAL YOUR PAST, YOUR PAIN, SHAME, SORROW, AND DESPAIR. YOU ARE LOVED BY OUR HEAVENLY FATHER - JOHN 3:16-17
I WAS A CALL GIRL. THIS IS MY STORY...
"What God Has Done For Other's He Can Do For You!"
By Susan S.
My lifestyle seemed glamorous, at first. But after that first night things quickly faded, as I realized it was just a job. With each client, it took a piece of my soul and led me to destruction. See, I didn’t know it back then, but there was a spiritual force (Ephesians 6:12) that was making my lifestyle look like candy. Candy always tastes good but there is a lot to be said how bad sugar is for the body. Eventually, my lifestyle led to the loss of my marriage and my first born son. But it wasn’t that simple. Eventually, I ended up in jail and I didn’t know who the father was. My son was just a baby; he was only 4 months. I can still remember the scent of his baby lotion. His new crib had barely been slept in. He was my shoulders comfort.
The worst day of my life was 20 years ago. To this day it brings tears to my eyes, every time my memory takes me back in time to when I surrendered him to adoption. I cried my heart out for the next 20 years of my life. This was my consequence, the raw stuff, the real deal of my addiction. That candy tasted sour and I no longer wanted it in my mouth. Ever!
So this is where the happy the story ends. Get real and live happily ever after. That’s how it’s supposed to go, right? But what happens when that candy is tempted in your face for the next breathing years of your life, then what? How far do you go to achieve your dream of not eating it? My friend, you cannot do it without God. I would be lying to you if I told you that you would never again be tempted. It is a continual, work in progress with learning new habits and behaviors. It has been said that dieting is a life-long change, not just a short term diet. I thought that was where my life had ended. But that was where my life began. God knew all that it would take to finally break me to bring me to my knees…. with my eyes up and toward Heaven. I chose the road that led me into that jail. God chose the road that led me out. I encourage you to endure and pray this prayer below.
FORMER CALL GIRL'S PRAYER...
Help me to accomplish not giving into my addiction. I’m tired of this scene and I want this more than anything. I am not able to rise above who I am at this moment. Only You can transform me. I fully realize that I don't have what it takes to be one without Your help. Take my urges, temptations, questions, tiredness, impatience, and irritability and turn them into kindness, long-suffering and willingness to bear all things. Take my old emotional habits, mind sets, and automatic reactions and make me patient, kind, gentle, self-controlled, not envious or boastful, nor arrogant or rude. Show me how love does not demand its own way (1 Corinthians 13:4-7). Give me a new heart and work within me to love the life you’ve given me, and all things that you created me to be.
Show me where there is sin in my heart, especially with regard to giving into this temptation. I confess the times when I've just wanted to put this issue aside and go back to my old, familiar ways. Rescue me from the threshold of separation where the realities of temptation begin. Make me my companion’s helpmate, champion and friend. And if my journey should lead me to confusion, show me what unconditional love really is. Teach me to accomplish loving only my best friend and how to be successful at it.
Make me a new person, Lord. Give me a fresh perspective, a positive outlook, and a renewed relationship with the second chance you've given me. Help me to see my current relationship with new eyes, new appreciation, new love, new commitment and new compassion. Give my helpmate a whole new companion, and Lord; let it be me.
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